It looks like you're going through a period where you've sworn off relationships. Either you've retreated from them altogether or switched to autopilot in your day-to-day interactions. There's nothing wrong with cocooning in place; it's to be expected when experiencing a deeply personal transformation that's hard to explain. But what makes this frustrating is being unclear about what you want while having visceral reactions to everything you don't want. Being in the dark — about yourself and others — is typical of a lunar eclipse, but if you put your faith in the process, you will reemerge restored and enlightened when the time is right.